God Does Not Slumber

Heard a moaning noise, when I got my sleep disturbed at 02:40AM on 18th June 2016. What I have seen in next minute made me to scream ‘Jesus!!! Help me out’…..

I have been deputed to the US for a long-term assignment as an IT – Portfolio manager with an offshore team in India.  Usually, if I go to sleep late after finishing offshore teleconference meetings (that is the nature of working in onshore-offshore model with many IT companies), I cannot easily wake up for next 5-6 hours unless the alarm buzzes repeatedly at high pitch or my wife or son awakes me in person.

On 18th June 2016, after finishing my long day with offshore teleconference meetings till 01:30 AM, I hit my bed with a small prayer as I was completely tired.  Suddenly, I heard a moaning noise at 02:40AM, the noise was very feeble but I woke up from my sleep, disturbed.  This was totally unusual for me to wake up in the wee hours only after hour of sleep when the body is completely stripped off energy. When I woke up and rushed to see the source of the moaning noise. What I saw made me to scream ‘Jesus!!! Help me’. My wife was unconscious in the restroom with her head struck in a narrow space in a corner of the room and I could not see her face. I tried to pull her out carefully as her head was found twisted. Somehow, I pulled her head out from that narrow space and made her to lie down flat on the floor.  By sprinkling water and giving her some to drink, I got her to a conscious state and then I made her to lie on the bed. Later I got to know that, 5-7 minutes back only this had happened and God woke me up in the wee hours by sending His angel.

First miracle was : The Lord who does not slumber, made me to wake up in the wee hour at the right time to hear the very feeble moaning noise and made me to attend critical medical situation

He will not allow your foot to be moved, He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.  Psalms 121:3 & 4

As a basic first aid, I checked her blood pressure, it was very low in the range of 60-70 though she was taking medication for high blood pressure. She was found very weak and pale.  After 15-20 minutes of rest, I rushed to an emergency room in my locality.  As there was no doctor except some paramedics/nurses, they asked me to take her to nearest bigger hospital with all the facilities. I got admitted her in ICU at 04:00AM and all the blood tests were done. She was getting better and her blood pressure fluctuation was monitored.  After 45 min in the ICU, she wanted to use the restroom, I was helping her to walk towards the restroom and she was leaning on me.  After 2 minutes of slow walk within 15 meters, she lost her consciousness the 2nd time in my own hand and collapsed to the ground.  Bunch of nurses rushed to the spot and got her to the bed and connected her back to the monitors. What I had seen was really shocking as her blood pressure was very low in the range of 20-25.

The 2nd miracle was: my wife re-gained her blood pressure very fast from 20-25 to 60-70 in the next 20 minutes without any major medical complications.

After seeing the 2nd time recovery with blood pressure readings on the monitor, I realized the critical medical condition of my wife that she was undergoing during 1st time pass-out at home and she should have been carried only in ambulance. Thank God! It was His amazing strength that made her to come down from 1st floor to ground floor and walking up to car parking area by holding my hand.

Doctors could diagnose the problem very fast and had to undergo a treatment for with the best medication. Praise God! She was restored to normal blood pressure in the next 24 hours and was discharged from the ICU.  Within the next 2 months, she got back to normal health condition.  Amen! God is our healer and by His wounds we are healed!

Yes. Our God is our ever-present help at the time of troubles and He cares for us as our father and mother.

This is a testimony from an IT professional, who is working for a multi-national company and  resides in Houston, USA.

Heavenly Consolation in times of despair with loss

‘Umakaga thanae ayya naan uyir vazgiraen ayya (It’s for you I live alone)
intha udalum ullam ellam anbar umakkaga thanae ayya (My soul, heart and everything belongs to you, my Lord)’

I love this song….. Whenever I feel I am left alone, and in desperate conditions, God always reminds me I live for Him alone. But it is hard to live on those lines in this world.  Anyone will agree with me. Most often when we are surrounded by trials, we often ask God, “Why did it happen to me, Lord? If God is in control, how could He let it happen to me?” But, often we see the present and forget about our future. We forget that God always has the best for us. When God molds, He is preparing a great treasure for us too.

The below is my testimony, though with pains and fear, I believe that God is in control and He always does what is good to me.

I got married in May 2012, and as everyone expects myself and my husband were longing for the good news in our house. We use to pray, “Lord, let everything be done in your perfect time alone”.

I know, God will do everything in His time as a man of God blessed us saying, “God will bless your generation”.  But that day, on April 1st, 2013, I was praying to God, “Lord you have promised me to bless me with a child. It’s gonna be 1 yr now since my marriage. And nothing has happened.  What plans do you have in my life?”

Whenever these questions arise in my mind, God asks me to wait. That whole week, God was speaking with me with the verses from I Samuel, where Hannah was praying to God and as God promised, she is blessed with a child.

I took it as confirmation and was praising God for hearing my prayers. His plans are always different. Also, He was always showing me the verse where Hannah promised God to dedicate her child –

“And she made this vow: ”O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, if you will look upon my sorrow and answer my prayer and give me a son, then I will give him back to you, He will be yours for his entire lifetime, and as a sign that he has been dedicated to the Lord, his hair will never be cut” – I Samuel 1:11(NLT)”.

This verse got deep-rooted in my mind and I understood what God was expecting from me. I surrendered myself and gave God a promise that my first-born was for His service, and shared the same with my husband.

Meanwhile, one man of God prophesied to my mom that I will get conceived that month.

It was May 20, 2013.  I was very tired and there were some changes in my mind and body and when we went to the doctor, she confirmed that I am carrying. I along with my husband was praising God for all He did in our lives. Days were running and I felt the Spirit of God lying with my baby. I was sure that my child was a chosen one for God. And I also had a chance to meet a family with my friend who were about to travel to abroad. When we were in prayer I felt the Spirit of God and the brother who was praying for me said that he saw my womb glowing. What else will make a mother happy? I was happy that my son will become an Ambassador for Christ.  I was in clouds writing poems about my son and singing songs for him. To my surprise he was very active. Doctors were surprised seeing him so active in my womb.

October became the busiest month for me because of my brother’s marriage.

And after my brother’s marriage some questions arose in my mind as if someone was asking it to me,
“Will you give your son to me as promised now?”

I was totally confused as I thought that voice to be my imagination.  I just prayed, “Lord, I know nothing will stop my Son growing for you. I can feel it. Be with him, guide him and use him as you wish”.

The next day was so awful for me. It was October 26. I didn’t feel the movement of my baby and went to the doctor.

She said she was not able to hear the heartbeat and I was asked to take scan immediately.  I felt like God was doing something and this will be a miracle. I didn’t lose my faith but I just couldn’t understand what was going on. “The baby will be safe”, this was the only thought running in my mind. I just started talking with God in my mind and asked my friend to send a prayer request to everyone.

But things were not as I expected. The scan report said that my baby’s heartbeat stopped and the doctor asked me to get admitted in hospital and they were arranging to take my baby out.

I just thought, “What on earth was happening and why was it happening to me?”

My eyes flooded with tears. Many were praying for me and were giving hope to me. Till last minute, I believed that nothing would happen to my child and I surrendered totally to God. One of my friends, who prayed for me, said there are angels visiting me and something great will happen.

Doctors were surprised to see me sitting without pain and they tried to take my baby out that night.

It was about 1.30 am on Oct 27. My baby was born. He was so cute, fully formed with lots of hair (as God showed me) but he was dead. I was uncontrollable. The doctors were not able to give reasons for my baby’s death as they found me and my baby healthy. But everything happened for a purpose and according to His will alone.

One of my friends who prayed for my baby fervently said that she saw a boy angel taken into heaven and a sister sent me a message,
“God has taken your first born for the heavenly choir and the rest will be yours”.

She doesn’t even know about my promise to God and my friend too sent a same message. Though I am into worldly pain, I was happy that God chose my child to be with Him. As job said, “God gives and takes away”, I bless the one who gave me and took away my child. My friend, who came to visit me, said, “Don’t ever question God for the things happened?”

Though it made me strong in Faith, sometimes, some thoughts often pondered into my mind disturbing me. But God knows our heart right.

I know a missionary who was working in Kashmir. He often came in my dreams for the past one week and was trying to convey something to me. But I couldn’t understand anything. I got a call on 14th November from an unknown number. To my surprise, it was the missionary. He lost my number somewhere and was trying to contact me for the past one week.

Somehow, he got my number he called me. He said, “God wants me to tell you something”. I got shocked and he continued saying, God wants to tell you that you have trained your son well. He sung well and God loves hearing his song in heaven”. I said in a surprise,” What? “He said, God was urging me to tell you for the past one week and he also said the song which I usually sing when my baby was in my womb.

The missionary, who spoke to me, didn’t know anything happened here and he was saying “I don’t know why God was pushing me so much to tell you this.” I explained him everything happened here and said, “If someone who knows everything have called and said these, I will trust in God but there will be a chance for me to think that they are trying to console me, but now I can’t doubt God at all right”.

I praise God for choosing my son in His heavenly choir.

I know it will be very hard for us to forget when we lose some one. But God has some plans in our life. When we are engulfed with sorrow and despair with the thoughts, “Where is God?” Despite personal stress and painful circumstances, we can be confident that God is sovereign and He is in control of our life-boats.  When we walk through tough situations, and if we focus on the waves of difficult situations around us without faith in Jesus, we may despair and sink.  But remember always, that God has some purpose in our life and His plans are always for our good and trust Him to walk in His faithfulness.

His peace always will be with us and I am sure that I will be meeting my child in heaven someday. Everything He did was for a purpose. It might be a testing time for us or God is preparing us for something greater.

I am thankful to everyone who prayed for my family in tears. It’s not that our prayers were unanswered but God has a better plan for us is what I believe. 

Carolin Divya, IT Professional with a MNC in Chennai and she can be reached through the editor (editor@ccf.org.in)

Promotion in Absence!!!

The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still. Exodus 14:14 

கர்த்தர் உங்களுக்காக யுத்தம் பண்ணுவார்

நீங்கள் சும்மாயிருப்பீர்கள் யாத்திராகமம் 14:14

Right from my childhood I have loved the Tamil version of this verse, a ton……and it has become true in my life now.

The literal translation of this verse from Tamil would go this way ‘I will fight for you..You will do nothing’

We doing nothing and God fighting on our behalf… isn’t it nice to hear, but is it possible in this current world?

But our Heavenly Father is just and true to His Word! He is faithful enough to do that and his promises are true. AMEN.

I joined back office on Apr 17th , after 6 months of Maternity leave and God had a wonderful news for me to welcome me back into office.

What I thought wasn’t possible for two more years has become possible through Christ for me now itself.

Have you heard anyone returning from a long leave with a promotion???????????

Ridiculous talk isn’t it….but it isn’t ridiculous anymore…I have got promoted from  TA to TL after returning from my long leave.

For my first child I had taken leave for 6 months so my appraisal rating  for that cycle was an NA , so was not eligible for this role change in last June.

And again this year I had 6 months break for my second child , so my appraisal rating for this cycle also will get affected.

Cos of these two breaks in my rating, I  thought my role change would not be possible till next year.

But, while I was on my leave itself our God has made my promotion possible.

I was awestruck when I saw my Role Change effective from January this year!!!

How wonderful is our Daddy, providing us with what we require in the apt time when we don’t expect it to happen that time.

Its Jesus who had fought for me and I was at peace in my home happily doing nothing.

I have no words to Praise him….but I can say just one thing ‘Thank you daddy’.

2 suicide attempts, a lost kidney….Transformation through Christ!!!

I was born in a Christian family and hence as a routine, used to go to church and lead a shallow life. Never even touched the bible and open it for reading. I completed my B Tech in the year 2002 from Machilipatnam. After my graduation, I didn’t even look for jobs and my friends took me to various places to perform some rituals to get some good job for me, all in vain.

My life was such that I used to smoke minimum of 20 cigarettes per day and get drunk every day. I never had enough sleep with this type of life. I used to roam on the roads very late till up to 3am.

My father is a very respectable person and he could not see me ruining my life like this and he used to scold me almost every day for my absurd behaviour. I have a younger sister and a younger brother. My sister is married and my brother is pursuing his MA. He is both deaf and dumb.

Even all our relatives stopped inviting me for any family functions just because I was such an irresponsible person. They didn’t even allow their children to mingle with me in fear that they also may get my kind of attitude and habits.

One fine day on Nov 2005, I met with a fire accident and my face got burned. I didn’t have any money to go for treatment and my friend paid for me. On the other hand, due to excess drinking of alcohol, one of my kidneys failed and had to be treated. No money even for that also. I lost a kidney due to my drinking habits, in Aug 2006.

My dad told that he would not pay any money for operation as I had spoiled my life on my own. Then I took a drastic step and came out of the house with no job, no money, no health, to Hyderabad.

I really messed up my life. I had my maternal cousin whom I had loved ever since I knew love. My love and feelings toward her were sincere and I was hopeful that we two would tie the knot soon. But my love failed (because no job, no responsibility) basically she was from doctor background, interested in marrying a doctor only and I was on the verge of ending my life. I tried to end my life first by laying on the railway track and it failed. I did not stop trying and tried ending my life again by consuming a full bottle of bathroom cleanser. Even that failed.

Then, one of my very good friend asked me to just go and listen to the church message. I thought okay, let me try this. I used to just go and sit there for a while and immediately return to my place.

On 17th September 2007, as per my friend’s request, I went for a youth retreat and they had 7 continuous days of prayer and my life changed upside down for my Christ!!!. God spoke to me through Romans 8:28.

God blessed me by giving me exclusive visions and happenings in and around my life. Then God gave me enough strength to let go off the love for my maternal cousin and I decided to take whatever God gives me.

From that day, I stopped all the worldly things like cigarette, drinking, roaming on the roads like a mad person. I made godly friends.

God started blessing my family when I prayed for them. My mother and my brother became strong in Christ. My father used to pray min 3 hours in a day.

Then all my relatives who used to run away from me and who never used to even allow their children to talk to me started coming to me, talking to me. Now the situation in my family has became such that without me, they don’t want to host any prayer meeting and any function also.

The stone that was ignored has become the corner stone of the building – this has been established in my life. Amen.

Now I see healing through visions. Recently I saw a vision that my mother is being healed of severe knee pain. I called my mother the very next day and she spoke that she is very well and knee pain is almost gone and she is able to walk freely

In my vision, I had seen that my aunt (Mother’s sister started building a home). When I went home, asked my mother about the same and they really had started building an own house.

My God who took all my useless, unwanted threads put them together and gave me a beautiful world of my own, a wonderful life with meaning in Him.

I am married to Vijaya, a wonderful prayerful lady who is supportive to me in all possible ways. We are blessed with a son, Devashish.

I want all the youngsters who have not taken their lives seriously till now to take a note of how my life has been transformed when I met my Lord in my heart face to face.

Please do continue to pray for me and my ministry, my personal life with my Christ and my family life as well.

I can conclude by saying that:

I never had a beautiful life till I came to know my Lord face to face. I was obedient to His voice, listened to him and now, my life is a colourful beautiful painting to which God is adding more colours to make it brighter.

Suresh Neelam, an IT professional, currently working in Chennai.

New Grain, New Wine and New Oil…..

New Job offer from one of the Tier -1 company with  100% hike when the IT Industry itself was in the midst-of recession.

I had been working for an IT company for 5  years and had great dreams about building a long career in the same company because I loved my God given job in a specific domain. So, I was working hard for more than 12 hours a day and some times, in the weekends as well, to complete the assignments on time. Since the environment was with healthy competition, I was so optimistic that everything will be taken care by the management and kept on doing my hard work. Above all, I trusted my God for every single matter, that He would take care of me.

Years went on… but the situation kept changing and all of my peers got promoted to higher grades and it so happened that I had to report to my peer who had been promoted.  That time I realized that the promotions were frozen due to recession, for next one year. Hence, I asked for a good long term assignment with my family.  For any onsite assignment selection, I would be given a slot where no one was available for whatsoever reason and it was so much hurting; hence I was praying for a good & long term assignment in any other country. That also didn’t happen and I was at cross roads with much humiliation and distress. Also, I was not sure about what to do at the onset of recession in the IT industry and this continued for more than 5 months.

One of my friends asked for my profile, I shared it just like that. Then, one afternoon in the following week,  one of my colleague shared the Word of God for 10 mins in our weekly lunch time Corporate Prayer fellowship, with the Bible Verse Joel 2:19, “ I am sending you Grain, New Wine and oil, enough to satisfy you fully”. He called out to the 15 member group, that whoever needs, let him / her inherit this new grain, new wine and new oil.  The moment I heard this prophetic voice from my colleague, I took it for me literally and immediately, new rays of hope beamed out of my heart and filled with the joy and peace that a great turn around will happen in my career.

Praise God… unbelievable…. within 2 weeks of time, I got a new job offer from one of the Tier -1 company with  100% hike when the IT Industry itself was going through recession.  It was like recovering the benefits which were lost for many years, miraculously.  Also, the new job was given for me to work in a different domain / skills requirements. God opened a new door for me to work in the domain / expertise that I had in 3 months which was not as per the original plan. This opportunity has given me a greater facelift and helped me to be connected with leading consultants globally in the specific domain across the companies.  Yes… God took care of my every single request, including my interest in a specific domain.

If you are going through a situation of no recognition for your good and hard work or humiliation by politics at your work or your promotion is long pending due to whatsoever reason and the situation is not favorable, let not your heart be troubled (John 14:1) and just make it known to our God (Phil 4:6). New Grain, New Grain and New Oil are there for you!!!… God will open a door for you that no man can shut, @ the right time!!!  Amen!!!.

From an IT Professional working in a Tier 1 IT company in Chennai